I used to look down on Peter. He walked with Jesus. He was there when Jesus performed miracles. He loved Jesus.
But, in the end, denied He knew Christ.
Amplified Bible (AMP)
"After a little while, the bystanders came up and said to Peter, You certainly are one of them too, for even your accent betrays you.
Then Peter began to invoke a curse on himself and to swear, I do not even know the Man! And at that moment a rooster crowed.
And Peter remembered Jesus' words, when He had said, Before a [a]single rooster crows, you will deny and disown Me three times. And he went outside and wept bitterly."
How could he? Not once, but 3 times. He vowed he would never deny Christ and yet his actions betrayed his heart. His rollercoaster faith was the only thing that was consistent. When Jesus called him to walk on the water, he leapt out then quickly started to sink when the waves rose around him.
But, today, I see myself in Peter's eyes.
I've walked with Christ for awhile now. I've seen Him work in amazing ways. I love Jesus.
But, sometimes my actions betray my heart.
My failures deny that I know Him.
My unwise decisions declare my commitment to self.
My sin refuses His Lordship.
My pride contradicts my association with Him.
Today, I have a new appreciation for Peter's bitter tears. I find myself crying them too.