Funny thing about faith.
I am not good at just being. I am a do-er.
When I come to a struggle, I want a list of things to do. My brain goes into overload trying to find solid ground to stand on instead of the mire that is taking me down. And most of the time, I work myself into a bigger mess. You think I would learn. But, I haven’t.
I find myself in one of those places today.
Wishing desperately, I could find someone who could tell me what to do next.
But, the counsel that I have received tells me just to be.
To stop trying to jump through hoops and perform my way out of the struggle.
To quit trying to reason why I am here and strategize a way out.
To stop raking through my life looking for another reason that God won’t move.
And, yet…I don’t know how to be.
To just “be” sounds very spiritual to me. Deep. Reflective. Peaceful.
A picture of a place that appears on the resumes of the great cloud of witnesses that wonder when I will ever ‘get it.’
SO, today, I am wrestling with how to ‘be.’