If you need to be strong, you want your roots to grow deep. If you want to get to the root of the problem, you want them to let go easily and not hang on.
My roots seem to have it backwards. The ones that were meant to anchor me jerk out of the ground when the storm winds blow. While the ugly roots of my issues are buried deep and hang on when I desperately struggle against them.
The Master Gardener uses the tools necessary to unearth the roots that have attached themselves to unhealthy places. Painful but necessary. My soul resists and longs for the safety of dark, deep, comfortable soil. And, yet, He continues to carefully search to find that one place that can't release itself.
My anchoring roots, I want to grow and develop overnight. Yet the root of my problems has been developed and nurtured over a lifetime. Tended by me and fed by my own foolish pride. Creating a system of strong insecurity and paralyzingly fear.
This is not how it was intended to be. I know that in my heart. I want so desperately to be free to grow and anchored deep...yet the root of my problem continues to choke out any healthy growth at all.
Today, and many days ahead, I must decide which one I will choose to feed.
4 comments:
This is so along the lines of what I've been thinking about lately. I've been learning so much about digging into the deepest parts of my heart to get rid of those roots that aren't supposed to be there so there is room for the good roots to go--for the foundation of faith to be laid. Great post! :)
Ouch, ouch, ouch...rightly said. I'm with you on this journey. Thank you for saying what I know to be true.
And me too, sister. As usual, powerfully and Truthfully written. Love you, my friend.
Our roots are so important. An odd thing I recently heard about are 'girdling roots'. They are roots that wind up growing around the tree instead of down into the soil. In the end, they kill the tree. In a way it reminds me of holding myself too dear, holding things in. Being wrapped up in myself seems protective sometimes, but it's a silent killer.
Our tree expert looked at our trees and cut off those offending roots on two trees in hope that they might live. Thanks for making me think about my own roots, Carol.
Elaine
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