Have you ever seen a table for one?
A room for one?
Even socks come in pairs.
It seems all the world is built on togetherness.
And you never really realize it until you are alone.
You take the chance to confidently sit by yourself in a crowded restaurant, when the large group comes through and needs an extra chair. Everyone knows, at the moment, no one is coming. Then, if you are like me...you eat in the car to avoid the situation.
You stare at a water stained ceiling longing for someone, anyone to listen to the happenings of your day, in your room for one.
When you are 'attached' you long for a quiet moment to yourself. When you are alone, the silence taunts you with every tick of the clock.
You have a great day and there is no one to call to celebrate.
You have a rotten day and have no one to cry with.
This is one.
Not "THE one." No, that is reserved for that special someone who is everything our hearts cry out for.
There is an ache and emptiness in "alone" that longs to be filled. A hunger that starves for satisfaction. And though, I desire for it to be fulfilled through relationship with God, my heart still looks for someone on earth who will tell me they care.
Someone who will dry my tears. Someone to celebrate my victories. Someone to walk with.
But, sometimes, they don't come. The chair is removed. Everyone knows, in that moment, that no one is coming. But, you hope they won't notice. Most of the time, they don't. But, you know. Yes, you know.
So, in the quiet moments that I hate and you wish for...
I stop and work hard at being thankful for Emmanuel, God with us.
Knowing that even in the darkest night, even when my emotions tell me otherwise, I am not alone. God, help me believe it.